a-beer-in-a-glass So I really need to get back on a “normal” schedule again.  Easier said than done.  Here I am at 4:42 am and still not asleep…this is my problem.  And it’s not even like am up writing a storm of slog…I’m the Queen of Procrastination…I just, I dunno.

Being out of work, I sleep late, then stay up late, and then sleep later, then before you know it I’m getting up at 6:00 pm everyday and going to bed around 8:00 am.  My “evening” is now, 4:30 am, not pm.  Very backwards, yes…for most people…but I find this very easy, even correct in a way.  I always have been a night person, but this is getting ridiculous if you look at it from a practical point of view.  It’s  very hard to get errands done, for one thing.  It cuts even deeper into my already becoming non-existent social life…you know, when your friends work during the day and sleep at night it’s not so easy to connect in person…there becomes a lag-time with phone-tag, and texting and emails. 

A certain friend of mine keeps insisting that this is not good for me and I need to get back on a “normal” schedule and insists that I’ll become depressed.  However, she also thrives on days off spent in any activity that gets her out of her apartment…shopping, a park, something.  I’m not like that, never have been.  To me, days off are for laziness and sometimes for cleaning your apartment.  Do those things that require you to be outside your apartment on your lunch hour or after work…on days where you already have been dealing with people all day.  I think she, more than any other reason, just really wants me to come out and do things with her, not necessarily because it’s something good for me.

Maybe my Taurus-ness is manifesting itself more than it did 10 years ago (arbitrary #).   I really have no desire to go Downtown “shopping” if I haven’t a wad of cash to blow.  Otherwise I’m just looking at stuff someone else wants to buy and having to deal with morons on the sidewalk.  I much rather hang out at home, watch movies, read, do internet stuff.cigarette

But this day-sleeping thing…I guess I just feel guilty as this is not how we were all brought up and maybe I really should try to see the sun sometimes.  That will mean me staying up for over 24 hours at this point, I think.  Instead of going to bed at 8:00 or 9:00 am, I’ll have to tough it out and keep going through the afternoon and evening.  Hmm…not looking forward to it.  But, yes,  I’ll have to do it soon enough if/when I ever get an interview for that sought-after employment.

Now for that cigarette…a nasty habit that I pick up when I’m not working…

© 2008 D. Kessler

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